Tough

My parents only have me & my brother.

They cannot depend on others, we cannot depend on others.

At least not all the time.

I have been busying with my parents hospitalization. Making calls, bringing them things, visiting them everyday, settling my dad's hospital leaves, visiting the temple. I have not been able to do anything for myself except maybe watching television. But I am not complaining now. I am just upset with my brother. Being an elder brother, he is not doing anything. He had only visited our parents twice. He can still go to gym. He hasn't done what he was supposed to do. He didn't convey my dad's message to me. Maybe because he is a guy and guys are just not attentive and careless. I mean I only have him now and I trust him to get certain things done. Or maybe he have his arrangements and he got to work. It is not that I don't want to be understanding. But I am just worried.

To make everything worse, relatives have been telling me not to get a job so soon. When I hear that I really couldn't handle it. No job no income. I will need to be at home to take care of them and bring them to physios. I am doing my part for the family and I just feel that my brother is not contributing.