Being in the mood again.

I am in the midst of annual leave and basically I am doing notthing much, just enjoying the day to day stuffs. Coming back to my own place, being in my own white, full of sunlight bedroom makes me feel.... relaxed. And makes me want to blog again! I know I used to blog more often, on random purchases, thoughts, anything. But when I'm staying at the bf's place, I just don't have the mood to blog.

One reason I feel it's because I dont have a place/spot where I can take photos nor do I have bright, sunny light flowing through the window. I mean light is everything to achieve nice photos! At least to me it is.

I hope I can come back more often.


Plan to cook something for the bf and me during this leave period.

You know I can never stop buying lingerie and panties. I just got 5 from Victoria Secrets on my trip to SFO and here I am buying these.

Got a boardshorts since I forsee a diving trip coming up. Plus, I have been going to Wavehouse in Sentosa.

Got this at 80% off in San Francisco. It was the last one. What a good buy!


I've got some items that I'm thinking of selling but since I haven't been blogging much on cosmetics, I'm not sure if anyone would know about it. Should I?

Friends or foes?

Stacy Lockwood: [to Angela before leaving the car] You're weirder than I thought. - A Friend to Die For, 1994.

I don't even know how to begin. Work is stressful enough. And now, this.
Who will you call a friend? or even best friend? I think the bf and I are really suited for each other in this aspect. We are too good a friend to our friends and best friends. This may all sound childish you think. HA. What best friend?! You are well over your teen age to be troubled over friendship! HA. But let me just say, either you have no true friends, can't admit this fact, not a good friend material yourself, don't need friends, or so damn lucky that you and your bff or bmf are just meant to be!

Friendships problems always gets to me. After all these years, I've learn enough. If it can affect you so much, it only means that you had cared a lot and you had done a lot. You made sacrifices and done so much for the friend, but only to get nothing in the end. You expected the same from him/her, but you get none. Of course, expectations only lead to disappointments. Unless you are so selfless. To make all these even worst, like a double blow, is that your friend took all that for granted.

When you decided to not stood up for him/her once, finally, he/she blew his/her top. Then it hits you. Hard. That this 'friend' is just plain selfish. The friend don't see what you have done for him all these while, he only see what you didn't do for him this time round.

Imagine all these situations plus additional 'combos'. That this friend is not alone, he/she have a similar partner. Or how about all these have some blood relationship tangling somewhere. And even, they are all bff and bmf of each other. Plus, a protective one who always give grey answers. Last but not least, the whip cream on top of my caramel latte, their lack of communication among themselves created problems for other. Oh wait, the cocoa powder on top of my whip cream, they don't admit their lack of communication/show their true self to each other?

Please don't judge me. I'm not saying I'm selfless or how great a friend I am. I may be assuming too. I am a person who needs my friends. I want to be her bridesmaid when she gets hitched. But if things won't work out, it just won't.

How well do you know yourself?

Does the title sound emo or wad? LOL.

So how well do you think you know yourself? Or sometimes you know yourself but you just hate to admit it. Since you won't admit it, it has to be a bad side of you. Yes. Don't deny. It is.
Like me. I hate to admit it, but I am a selfish person sometimes. I am so self-centered. Sometimes. Haha. Ok. But I KNOW I am selfish. Wtf. Can I not type that again.

Other times you really don't know yourself. This happens to me. And who is the one that knock some sense into you and remind you that 'why are we having this conversation/argument again?'
This person is the person that you unbashfully show your true self to. You got reminded of who you are or what you need at the expense of hurting that person. In that way, you are being selfish.

So today I learned that I am a girl who needs assurance about the future and must be constantly reminded that I am assured and safe and secure for the future. Not that the giver is not giving me assurance, but me, ever so often needs to be reminded.
It is like I have a heartshaped assurance screw screwed to my arm, but it gotten lose over every 3months. And it needs a heartshaped screwdriver to tighten it. (Whuu... another tatt inspiration! a set of heartshaped screw and screwdriver!)

So, am I making sense?
Tomorrow is a very important day. Busy day too. Looking forward.

I ♥ you, heartshaped screwdriver.

Life just isn't a bed of roses

Sorry this is a no-photo post! I am basically whining. So skip this post if you don't want to hear me whine!

Honestly, I think nobody understand or 'feel' this quote better than me. I have seen so many downs in life. Unbeatable track record.

Now that I haven't got a job, I am spending so much money on my health. The bf paid $190 for my previous trip to the dermatologist. And guess what's next?
My wisdom tooth. 2nd time.
It almost killed me the past few days. Thank god the swelling is subsiding now. So the surgery is scheduled on Monday. I am petrified. Needless to say the 1st time was hell. I was crying in the dental chair and squeezing the dentist hands. I remember they had to inject the anesthetic several times throughout the surgery.
Then my rashes seem to be coming back. I am thinking I am probably allergic to the painkillers. Aside from my rashes, my eyelids are getting a little red and swollen. I am getting all these little bumps on my face. They are hardly visible but I can feel it when I wash or touch my face.
Sigh.... big sigh... what is wrong with me??
The bf said I am a sick chicken.

I am going to watch Clash of the Titans later tonight! It is Good Friday tomorrow. Hope everyone have a great long weekend!!

Late night weekday movie

I got home at around 3am in the morning.
This was the first time I got back SO late on a working weekday!
That was because Avatar only had good seats at 10plus.
Anyway, the movie was fantastic.
I find it alil slow but overall its good!

Lately my complexion is getting worse. I mentioned that in an earlier post too.
In between then and now it did recovered abit, but its back now.
My bff said 'since when you got these bumps on your face?'
AND AND AND there is this pimple
on my right cheek that never NEVER heals!!!
The bumps are usually around the eyebrow, which I don't understand why.
Could it be due to the trimming of the brows? So the skin gets irritated?

now u see it

now u dont.


Ice cream makes everything better.



Christmas is just a few days away!!

Thursday blueee

I am sure my dad suffers from OPCD.

Just this morning, I could not find my postcards. I had placed them on the dining table last night, and it was gone this morning.

He is obsessed with everything at home.

He does not want my mum to do the dishes, to clean the house.

He thinks that it will not be done up to his standards. My mum would have gladly allow this.

But my dad actually does it worst compared to my mum. Or me!

He uses the same mop for the floor to clean the coffee table. !!!

He even needs to arrange my stuffs in my room, moving them from the dresser to the cupboard.

My brother and me are constantly searching for our stuffs at home.

The worst is, he even throws them away without asking us.

I specifically told him not to do my laundry but he does it anyway.

Resulting in my white tops being stained, my size XS tops into XL, or my favorite tops going out of shape.

It may sound funny. But living with someone like that is crazy.

Upset skin Upset me

Growing up my skin have always been relatively good.

but nowadays, its been giving me problem.

It's getting really sensitive.

Little pimples or bumps are popping out randomly.

I am wondering if its the products that I am using on my face now...

Or even the makeup! I don't used to put as much makeup now as before.

Or the stress and lack of sleep from my new job.

I had plan to post my beautiful mini haul.

But I am too upset to do so now. Yes. This is a rambling post.

LOL.

Share with me if you have had the same experience!